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Stutter: The struggle of finding your voice

It is in human nature to talk and share stories and experiences but in some cases the flow of words which is essential for story telling breaks, even though you are trying your best but the words just won’t come out. They call it a stutter I call it the nightmare.   I was ridiculed, bullied and teased my whole child hood, under confident, never made friends not because I never wanted to but because nobody wanted to be “f..f…friends” with me. They called me names and the worst part was that I was declared disabled by the school. They think it helps somehow but honestly, it only makes it worse. I was constantly being reminded with my disability with every mail I got and with them treating me like I was different or special. Nobody wants that, why can’t they consider me normal? I always thought that. The older I got the bitter and angry I became. I never talked so people started to think that I was selfish, rude or even angry at them. The insecurities engulfed my wh...

When Life Gives You A Heart Attack

It is a blessing to be alive. I was overweight, and no matter how much weight shaming I received throughout my life, I was always humble and steadfast. I was a nurse and I always thought that heart attacks were an old age thing but after my experience I would only recommend one thing, never self-diagnose. Do not wait till you see the light flashing before your eyes. Get yourself examined properly, even with a slightest scare so that worse could be avoided. All this has been made easier now with the electronic health record software in the market. It was like any other day, getting summoned at different floors, helping doctors walking round the ward, but I felt more exhausted and stressed out that day.    There was this pressure on my chest so instead of going back to the nursing floor after checking up on a patient, I sat at the corner of his bed. I thought it was because I hadn’t slept for two days but that wasn’t it. I was sweating which wasn’t normal but I still p...

Migraine Can Be Cured

Living with it is debilitating. The pain that ranges from a slight ache to agony. These awful headaches get more frequent and more painful not matter what you try. Over the years it starts affecting work, relationships and confidence. Many things trigger migraine including smell, weather, food and especially people when they tell this is happening because either you are drinking too much coffee or dehydrated. It gets really frustrating, life becomes a nightmare. Symptoms usually start with neck pain on the right side, followed by nausea and excruciating eye pain accompanied by vomiting and you try switching to zombie mode because standing up hurts you can’t lie down and even thinking is unbelievably painful. In this period all you want is some way out of it some help or anything pills to yoga that could make it go away. But it only dials it down a little but it doesn’t go away.   But now it is claimed that scientist have discovered a bundle of accessory nerves on the ...

The Dark Cave They Call Depression

They said I was a threat to no one but myself. I often felt lonely, nobody was around who could understand me or the situation I was going through, just a bunch of people looking at me like if I was an alien or if there was something wrong with me . I started looking it up and read on bigthink that my generation was at the highest risk of mental health issue. Problem was whatever was happening to me, I couldn’t control it. The anxiety, stress, the continuous nagging from the people around me expecting something from me which I was unable to deliver, it was all very exhausting. It was not that I didn’t want to achieve the set bar, I was just unable to do it right, but nobody was willing to understand that. I wasn’t sick I was just exhausted and stressed out because they were unwilling to understand me. I never liked the feeling when I don’t have control over my body or emotions that’s why I didn’t want to go to a doctor because I knew they would drug me trying to fix me a...

Survival Story (Cancer Sucks)

When you are diagnosed with a horrible disease like cancer, every emotion, hope, and every part of your body shatters. The feeling of hard plastic bed against your back and the sound of intense ultraviolet lights never fades away. In such dark circumstances, the only thing that one could possibly rely on is the support network and positive of the people around. The perfect cure is only possible if the person has the best physicians with most efficientdiagnostic techniques and software. I was lucky enough to find all these things. When diagnosed, I was horrified, the fear, the disappointment in life and anxiety, it was all really scary. But the survival instincts kicked in and with the help of people around me I learnt how to deal with the challenge. Ricochet the fear because I had to stand up for my family. It took me a couple of years to recover but I learnt how to laugh again, and found a greater appreciation for life.  The best part was when the hair started co...