Stutter: The struggle of finding your voice

It is in human nature to talk and share stories and experiences but in some cases the flow of words which is essential for story telling breaks, even though you are trying your best but the words just won’t come out. They call it a stutter I call it the nightmare.

 I was ridiculed, bullied and teased my whole child hood, under confident, never made friends not because I never wanted to but because nobody wanted to be “f..f…friends” with me. They called me names and the worst part was that I was declared disabled by the school.

They think it helps somehow but honestly, it only makes it worse. I was constantly being reminded with my disability with every mail I got and with them treating me like I was different or special. Nobody wants that, why can’t they consider me normal? I always thought that.

The older I got the bitter and angry I became. I never talked so people started to think that I was selfish, rude or even angry at them. The insecurities engulfed my whole life. I still remember those nights when I wept myself to sleep, praying to god to just make it go away.

I never wanted this for my life nobody does. I wanted a normal life, to participate in speeches I was an excellent writer but this impairment took that away from me.

My parents tried multiple doctors different medications whatever they possibly could but nothing worked. Lastly we went for speech therapy. It changed everything for me. I still remember the first time I went to therapy. It was not comfortable with the idea of it. We entered the room and there were these colorful charts hanging on the wall and a very kind doctor sitting behind a computer. He asked my name and details and started to put data into the computer. When I asked him what he was doing he told me he is writing my details into and Speech Therapy Electronic Medical Record Software so that he could keep in check my progress as well as keep us updated with it, I was really impressed. Things went off

well.

It has been a couple of years since I started therapy, the things which seemed impossible are now becoming possible. I still stutter sometimes but I have grown out of my problem with the help of therapy I am much more confident now, have made a lots of friends.

This nightmare actually taught me a lot of things, people will make fun of you whether you stutter or not but you have a voice take a stand speak up for the right cause and people will respect you.